my boyfriend :')

this song reminds me of you. it used to be the ringtone when you call.

SPM's over. Somehow tak rasa best because i didnt do well fr my papers. Got a list of thngs to do (y) sampai taktahu nak buat which one first. Firdaus picked me up around 5pm and then we picked sha, syaqeel and aswad up at their houses. We went to ou, walked around and went to curve around 8pm. Had dinner at Manhattan Fishmarket, walked around and balik. Didnt do mch today. I'm currently tired and sleepy but i dnt feel lke sleeping yknw. macam nak tgk dvd but cerita semua boring (n) Oh Ann, please wake me up tomorrow mrng. If i didnt answr yr call, tidur mati la nampaknya, and yesss, tak jogging la nampaknya :P

Life's okay lately. I'm getting better each day. Emo still ada la but dude, its not wawa if tak emo kan? hahaha. My past hs taught me well. I mean i cn handle things and my feelings la now :) no more emo wawa yg lepak at the park every evening, no more emo wawa yg dgr emo songs 24/7. hahaha NO MORE. i'm completely a different person now. better person. gonna chnge my attitude, gonna treat everyone nicely, gonna learn to appreciate people and life.

I wore normal school uniform today. White baju kurung, light blue kain, white tudung and white shoes. Balik je rumah, someone texted me "i forgot how pretty you look in normal school uniform :)". haha somehow the txt reminded me zaman form 1. Rasa macam nak turn back time, study betul2 and no boyfriend? Hahaha.

Oh December, Please Be Good To Me :)

You love each other but cant manage to communicate without arguing, fighting and ending up exhausted, each one in his/her corner, trying to lick his/her wounds and thinking of how to protect one self against a new attack. And in spite of that you love each other?

How is this possible? Why do people hurt most those they love? How come we are full of good intentions but when it comes to reality we find ourselves shouting and blaming the other one. And then that monster of guilt jumps out of nowhere to our throat to strangle us once again.


You gotta face the consequences of your actions, Shazwani. Get over it and move on.

It's 3.26am and i really really need someone to talk to.
Ergh. Addmath ppr in few hours :(

i'm fucking depressed.

lama sial tak menangis teruk macamni.

Sha's 17th

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY,

KECIKBESAR!

 

I'm depressed.

I want chocolates.

I need chocolates.

Aloooooooot of  chocolates.